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14 April 2006 @ 09:36 pm
Ficlet: Yours (Jake/Austin, G)  
Title: Yours
Pairing: Austin Nichols PoV (Austin Nichols/Jake Gyllenhaal)
Rating: G
Disclaimer: This story is a work of fiction and imagination, with no disrespect intended
Note: I haven’t written fictional stories in about five years so I hope it works. Also, this is the first story I wrote in English (it’s not my native language). Thanks to colourful_muse and tinnean for beta-reading.

They always asked Jake how it felt, the stubble, and the muscles; how it was compared to the softness of a woman.
No one ever asked him if it was difficult for him to see Jake make out with a man. Not even Jake asked him that. For Jake it was all the same, no point in discussing it; for him it was just another character in a movie, just another job.
And so he didn’t dare share his thoughts, his fears. He acted as if it didn’t matter to him. After all, it was just a movie.
But long after its release, when they finally went to see it together, he couldn’t help but flinch when he saw Jake kiss a guy who wasn’t him. It made his stomach twist. He had to swallow hard, and he noticed that his hands were shaking.
The feeling surprised him; he had never thought of himself as a jealous person.
Jake sat next to him, their knees just touching each other; his hand resting on top of Jakes. And all of a sudden he felt ashamed.
He shouldn’t be jealous because it implied that he didn’t trust Jake. It meant that deep down in his heart he felt insecure about Jake's commitment to him. It was also then that the voice inside his head, silent for so long, started talking again.
“You’re not good enough for him.” it said over and over. “You’re not worth his love, you’re not ‘the one,’ and you know it. He’ll soon find someone better than you, you’re just some toy because he’s bored, if he was serious about this, wouldn’t he want to tell everyone? Wouldn’t he want to be seen with you? Wouldn’t he stop hiding you?”
He shook his head slightly to get rid of the thoughts but it didn’t help.
Just at that moment Jake leaned over and whispered, “You know, I’m all yours… yours alone.” That was when he knew he had no reason to be jealous; and finally the voice in his head fell silent and the knot in his stomach vanished. Jake was his, he thought, and smiled. His alone. And there was no reason to doubt their love.

PS: I was waiting for a community like that. Thanks!
claireyfairy1 on April 15th, 2006 09:24 am (UTC)
Aww, that was very sweet. It was nice to see BBM from Austin's point of view. Thanks for posting it!
claireyfairy1 on April 15th, 2006 09:25 am (UTC)
Excellently written considering it's your first story in English and it's not your native language. Bravo.
Manu: gyllenhaal (think of me)manuanya on April 15th, 2006 10:33 am (UTC)
Re: P.S.
thank you so much :) that means a lot to me! I was very worried about posting it because I know that I can't put feelings in (english) words the way a native speaker does...
jade5743 on April 15th, 2006 02:04 pm (UTC)
love it. it's so sweet =)
Manu: gyllenhaal (pink pullover)manuanya on April 17th, 2006 02:53 pm (UTC)
thank you :)